Truth is... Breast feeding sucks. Literally! It's painful and makes boobs look ugly. Once you get over engorgement there's always the cracked/bleeding nipples creeping around the corner. I hate breast feeding. If I didn't have a ridiculous notion that the world is coming to an end and formula won't be available I'd give it up right now! Luckily, however, there is technology out there that helps ease the pains. I've found a fabulous nipple shield (which has saved my cracked and bleeding nipples from feeling like I took a cheese grater to them) and I have a good pump so why am I complaining?
Truth is... I'm in love with my little baby Connor. He's so special. He has the most gentle, calm disposition and I'm thankful my Heavenly Father sent him here to me at this time. It's stretching me emotionally and physically to be a mother of two but when I sit and think about it, this is exactly what I want to be doing right now.
Truth is... With my last semester of school quickly approaching I'm having a hard time wanting to let my babes be taken care of by someone else. It's only for 16 weeks and will most likely go by quickly once it gets started, but seriously! I just wanna be done with the student phase of my life so I can move on!
Truth is... As frustrating as a two year old can be, I think this is my favorite stage that Carter has gone through. He is so full of life and energy! He has the best memory in the world and never forgets anything. He's in love with super hero's and pretends to be spider man on a daily basis. He can even almost sing the entire spider man theme song from the 1967 cartoon that's streaming on Netflix. He speaks incredibly well for a kid his age he easily speaks in full sentences (if not paragraphs) that are very articulate and understandable and never ending (he talks A LOT). He often tells me that he wants to be a doctor. Wouldn't that be cool?
Truth is... I need to get out of my house more and start enjoying this beautiful new area we live in. I've been stuck in the house basically since we've moved here. At first it was because I didn't know my way around (and I still don't) but now I'm just timid to leave the house with two munchkins. But, alas, I need to get over it. I'm a big girl and can adapt... I suppose.
